★ KillStarr ★

A few days ago, Ollie's blood test came back as positive for heartworms. It was very devastating and it really shocked the whole family. Again, I felt that fear and pain that I did when I lost Mr. Fuzzo. Ollie is my baby... and he has always been my baby for seven years since the day he was born on our kitchen when Wir surprised us with four wonderful puppies.

Now Ollie is still our puppy even if he's that old... he's still our playful boy and he's my best friend, my guardian, my loyal angel who had always been there for me. I was never angry with Ollie and he always made me happy.

After receiving the news, it almost paralyzed me. Now he's having some temporary medication - the treatment for this disease is very expensive. It's almost hopeless...

I did some research and also posted threads on some forums including in United Dogs where all my babies have an account. I got some insight from other owners and found out that there's still hope. We're going to take Ollie to a different vet who might give a better opinion (the last one seems to be less knowledgeable of what she's doing). We're also going to continue giving him his medication and give him and Wir Heartguard.

PLEASE PRAY FOR MY OLLIE'S HEALTH. YOUR PRAYERS HELPED WIR WHEN SHE WAS SICK, IT WILL SURE HELP OLLIE.


Ollie's doing well... still very playful and lovable...




PS - Bob and I had loads of fun when I went with him to his field trip...


[photos are private on Facebook/Multiply]

At the end of the day, I am always fucked up.

Is it really that hard to grasp that you are not the only human in the world, hence you are not the only one with emotions?? Well, I'm not literally pertaining to you or to anyone who gets to read this. It's just that I noticed that some people just only give a damn about their feelings and not yours. I mean, here's the deal - I don't really give a damn about other people's feelings when they don't mean anything to me. I mean, why bother?? Seriously.

It's not that I intend to hurt anyone on purpose. I just say what I have to say and in fact, I do it even to people I care about only that it's in a more subtle way.

But some people... just hurt you because they're all messed up.

What if I'm also messed up on that day? Don't I have the right to let it out and have some comfort??

Epic fail.

Well not really new... I'm uploading my Galera Series in a very unfashionable manner. I just upload them when I feel like doing so. So they come out in different times but they're all taken back in April '09.

Anyways, here are some of the series in DA:

So last night wasn't such a good night.

Well right now, I'm waiting for New Moon... it doesn't start until 3:20PM. Geof and I are at Netopia... hmmm... I just realized that whenever we're at the mall and we find nothing to do, it's either we're eating or in some Net Cafe. Mmmm... found someone who can jive with the computer geekiness. Well, I think he's geekier than me. Afterall, he's the gamer.

I was browsing some photos like I usually do, hang around DA (like I usually do) and suddenly I felt so uninspired. Well, I have no new ideas - maybe I'm just tired. I dunno, really...

I just want something new to come up. Well I have a ten day vacation, I shouldn't waste it. Afterall, I'm not gonna have another one in a year. Oh God, please give me inspiration.

Suddenly, I want cupcakes and glitters. Is that an inspiration? Wow, the twist of love... but I still want blood. LOL.

Oh... thinks... Oops... it's almost time.

And one more thing, I just need to blog this. Earlier, Geof and I were ordering some lunch in this one stall at the Food Court. While we were waiting for our lumpiang shanghai to get served, the "waitress" beside me (she's not actually a waitress, it's just a stall so she's the girl who calls for customers and "entice" them to eat there) was talking to another customer. Hmmm.. it was an old foreigner dude checking her out. She was really proud of what she's doing, huh. Even gave out her number... Girls like her make me sick, they're the reason why women here get a bad reputation with some foreigners.

Pfft...

It sucks...

I work five days a week, live in my own apartment and go home on weekends... well, at least my weekends which happen to be Thursday and Friday. I leave on Saturday and I'm barely awake when I'm home in Cavite because of my schedule...

So now I got my vacation leaves plotted and I'm home for ten days.

Day 1. I came home, I get cold treatment and I feel like I don't even exist. The hell with that?

I already regret being here, I wish I just didn't go on leave... at least I won't be feeling ignored at all. I shouldn't have decided to just go home and stay here just to feel all fucked up by the people blaming me for not washing the damn plates. Damn that.

I just noticed... every Saturday, Geof and I end up fighting until Sunday. I hate this day. I don't know what the hell is wrong with it or is it just plain coincidence that we argue on this day.

Nothing was supposed to be wrong. Yesterday was okay. Well, I had my own problems with a person blaming me to be the one who's hacking my cousin's account. Well, it's not really resolved but the thing between my cousin and me had been. Now there's one thing that I don't understand... is it really that hard to comfort someone?

Is it really not easy? I mean, whenever I feel down Geof and I end up arguing about it and things get worse. We fix it though but I really am not happy with the bullshit part.

It sucks... really, really bad.

Thins aren't getting any better.

When you're lonely, all you want is some comfort... is that so damn hard to give?

Cheesy as can be... things are getting better and better.

I know, it's too early to tell but hey who can you blame?? Things ARE getting really good. I do know that it's been just a couple of months but like I've said before, this is nothing like the past relationships I've been in and in fact, I've never even felt this way or have this much dedication in my life.

Many people keep telling me that we're both just starting together - sooner or later one of us will fall out of love and eventually we'll fall apart. They keep telling me that if one of the couple is feeling so much intense love, the other one doesn't feel the same... and it's always like that. Hearing those words are really freaky - I mean, who would want to anticipate a breakup??

Duhh...

Sometimes it makes me think - the things that these people tell me, are they real? It's like a fiasco waiting to unfold... and it's almost as good as saying "why bother to be in a relationship?". But then I thought - I never follow norms... and I never consider myself as the same an ANYONE else... so why bother listening.

It's a funny thing - the things people say are really absurd. Oh well, it's like telling me that they used to be like me when they were younger but now they're boring people... considering that they were nothing like me at all.

Hmmm anyways...

Yesterday was the first time we went to church together. It was really nice, hopefully next week we get to sit somewhere nearer. We were stuck at the far side of the church, I didnt really like the idea of talking while in a church.

CHeeRioS!! Hmm more updates soon!

My bro and I always goes out on a date every month. It's like our "Brother-Sister Date" kind of thing and watch the movies or go out shopping... especially now that I'm usually away for work.

We watched GForce last time and it was really fun!! Well, unlike our epic Japanese food trip, we just had some burgers at Burger King and went to see the movie. Always fun to be with my baby bro! I just like pampering him a lot, Geof thinks I'm spoiling him too much. Well, my mom IS spoiling him but for me, we're just having loads of fun! (I also think I'll be buying that Gforce shirt...)

I'm bored. But I need money... to do things.

Mmmm... why the hell do I always use up my money before I can even get my next pay!?? Damn it.